FALLINGDOWNSCARED

a film by joule seventeen

TWO CHAINS COILED AROUND EACH OTHER
TO CREATE ALL WE HAVE EVER KNOWN,
BUT NOW WE ARE LONG GONE.

GONERS FROM BIRTH,
GONERS TIL DAWN,
CHASING A FABRICATED EFFERVESCENCE,
MISSING THE TARGET OVER AND OVER.

YET DESPITE THE INSIDIOUS ANCHORMAN,
DESPITE THE ACCEPTANCE OF LOSING
EVERYTHING WE WILL EVER LOVE,
THERE IS STILL A DEEP HOPE
AND IT BELLOWS FROM THE CORE OF HUMANITY
AT A FREQUENCY TAILOR MADE FOR YOU.

HANDS OVER EYES, HANDS OVER EARS,
EYES ON THE FLOOR,
EARS DEAFENED TO NUANCE,
HANDS OVER HEARTS
VERSUS KNEES ON THE GROUND,
AND VICIOUS 2CYCLE4
OVERTAKING COMMON SENSE.

WE ARE ALL SCARED.
WE ARE ALL SCARY.

THERE IS A TRUTH TO EVERY CRUSH.
I FEEL NOTHING AND I TRY TO FEEL EVERYTHING.

I AM STILL
FALLINGDOWNSCARED
OF YOU.

IT WAS DEBILITATING
TO WITNESS THE NARCISSIST SPIRAL INTO OBLIVION
BUT I WAS GLUED TO THE TRAGEDY,
MY REALITY MANICURED TO TAKE THE BLAME,
AND I WOULDN’T DARE CHANGE I THING.

I LEARNED TO SHOTGUN LEMONADE IN A DREAM.
I SMELLED A GARDEN ROTTING IN MY HEART.
I WATCHED A MONARCH FLY DOWN THE STORM DRAIN
IN YOUR NEIGHBORHOOD.
I RIPPED OUT MY TONGUE AND
I LEFT IT ON YOUR DRIVEWAY.
I WATCHED WET FOOTPRINTS EVAPORATE ON THE BACK PORCH.

TUNE OUT THE CHANGING TIDES OF MEMORY.
KEEP JUMPING HARDER INTO THE THINGS
THAT MAKE YOU FEEL THE MOST,
AND BECOME A VAGRANT IN YOUR MIND.